hmm

how to get there is secondary. just getting the assurance that a recognised body out there thinks i have what it takes to major in law is what i need now.

im not exceptionally good. that i know...but i want to know that something i love and have been learning works.

woooow.

i felt tired only when i was waiting for the bus to get home. although i left bright and early for breakfast and then to suntec and then to meet everybody else, it felt good after a reeeeally long time. i am soo happy so many people were there especially those who really matter like my dearest ane'. poor akheekhee was in pain though i hope you go see the doctor once you cant tahan like you said this morning kay babe.

oh and did you know. when the boys saw that you were in pain, they were speculating the fact that maybe its due to period cramps haha BOYS. always assuming its that thing when somehthing goes wrong. when a girl gets angry...PMS. when a girl's in pain...CRAMPS. sheesh.

i loved yesterday, it was a much needed break from all the hustle and bustle of school. now that its the final lap, its kinda bitter sweet. internship made me realise that i actually like the rushing around and cramping my brain for solutions to help the make believe client. and i know that as much as we promise not to, we will definitely grow further apart than how we all are now like meeting in ilaw, going to itas and what not.

everybody will be taking a different path. just that i really dont know which is mine.

im just afraid if ive applied to various places but nobody wants me. or for some reasons, i'll end up not wanting them just cause i cant.

i know for a fact HE'll point out a way. im just really afraid for now.

its not funny how confused i am now you know.

and there are so many things we have yet to do, this test, that test, this deadline, that deadline then suddenly theres the main exams and then there are still so many things to settle while trying to kick ass.

all these doesnt end at home though cause sitting idle means things couldve been done.

this calls forrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why do i have a feeling that.

i will feel guilty no matter what decision i make. unless it is to work after i graduate...not that they are preventing me from going after what i want...its difficult.

i have about a month and a half left to make up my mind and give the flying kick with my results. i hope hope hope that with whatever i will be doing 6 months from now, i will be happy and i will be on my way to awesome things, insyallah.

so im not as wise as we all thought haha its got nothing to do with the wisdom tooth...yet? hopefully never but they took 2 x-rays and literally knocked around in my mouth trying to figure out whats wrong. he place a swab with something cold on it onto my tooth but i didnt have a reaction then he placed some metal for about 5 seconds onto a normal tooth and i jumped. exactly how a i should react but when he placed it onto THE tooth, 5 seconds....10....nope i didnt react. he figured that the nerves in the tooth is dead.

gedebak gedebuk and after consulting another dude, they decided that i have the leong somethingsomething molar condition. funny aint it? then he went on to say that it usually happens to chinese people. interesting...

haha so i was referred to another person then she did what was needed.

i didnt cryyyy haha teared only amacaaaaaam

there so many things in my mind, i have to note them down and decide wisely. ayah gave options too but its quite vague so i have to go read up on them again.

i feel stressed up studying but even more stressed up now that i'll be graduating. shucks.

i have a major toothache i dont know if its the wisdom tooth but it is driving me crazy. its as if somthing is drilling up in between my teeth bloody hell it hurts a whole lot. it started hurting yesterday morning but its about ten times worse today cause i can hardly pronounce some words properly. maybe cause i kept imitating the video, 'my good friend vicky'

haha shit.

well i had a good past few days did you?

i had a fun fun night yesterday, good crowd and awesome ending. but i must say that we werent all a fan til the last performance...what a singer, good on you.

and i have been trying to work on my letter and will since hours ago but goodnessss seems like theres no end to this. im not sick of it just that its not as interesting as i thought it'd be. maybe cause its the first project. uurgh.

sakit gigiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii